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Saturday morning 4 am--what a twisted moment. I passed out in a tent full of mostly guys not even on my relay team, and woke up in someone's arms. We were shivering, it was so fucking cold. We were sharing a blanket, pressed up against each other for warmth. Everyone else was sleeping. We hooked up.
I didn't expect to get married or anything afterwards, but he completely ignored me for the next couple days. I tried talking to him and he avoided the subject completely. He acted like nothing ever happened. We eventually did talk and it was super awkward. We both were there, we both knew what happened, what are you trying to hide? HE was the one who initiated it, and then he acted like nothing ever happened. I know I am over reacting. Stuff happens, but can't you at least acknowledge it? I guess I'm just surprised because I didn't think that he was like that.
I feel kind of used, but that's not the right word because I liked it too. ...I just don't like penis.
IN OTHER NEWS: I haven't been sleeping, like, at ALL. I pulled an all-night-er last night for absolutely no reason, and I'm not even tired. I didn't sleep during relay, and the preceding two nights I went to bed around 3 am. I don't get tired these days. Also, another retarded thing about me is that I gained 9.5 lbs from Thursday to Sunday, which is crazy fast...like over 3 lbs per day? Is that even possible? But all my clothes still fit the same, and my face even looks a little thinner IMO but who can say for sure. I am probably going crazy from lack of sleep, or my body is going crazy from lack of sleep, or both. I am so thirsty. +my ipod is a little shit bag and found another way to commit suicide +I kind of cleaned my room. Katie, this is for you, be proud! :-) The cleaning lady even vacuumed (mmm, fresh vacuum lines...ahhh) +ANTM tomorrow ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! season finale yes no?
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